what i want, what i am, who will i become...

For the past years of my life i have been struggling... always worried about finances, school activities, family, and a lot more concerns.. til i finished up college and started to work.. still i had a lot of troubles. always wishing for a stress free working environment. no phone calls to attend to, no paper works, just work for only eight hours, no uniforms, and work with friends.. luckily i am not into this.. finally i quit my stressful job, and had a new one, having all of these that i have wished for. but why is it that i am worried? as if felt like it's just too good to be true. uneasy and restless that it wont last long...

my friend's departure was moved a month to its scheduled date. and i was happy.. very happy that i will still have a lot of time with him. but why do i feel I'm alone. what's wrong with me? huh!i wanna sleep all day but i can't..hope i'll get over this.. i really hope..

i wonder what will i become.. wanna have my own place.. wanna feel solemnity.. wanna have privacy.. free from rascals and big mouths.. again i hope to. i really hope it'll be... soon..